1st ultrasound

today's ultrasound was a little disappointing. i didn't want to get up so early, but i dragged myself out of bed and took a train to a subway to a bus that smelled like mold and dryer sheets. and then like air conditioning. on that bus i finished a book by philip k. dick called the man in the high castle.

arrived at the doctors office. read 1/2 a pregnancy magazine. got called into an ultrasound room i hadn't been inside of, had more natural light than the other one. and a smaller maybe older ultrasound machine. and the mobile hanging from the ceiling was of a bunch of monkeys. and a banana tree. they danced around in circles and one monkey would crash into the tree occasionally. a fault in the design. i sat for what felt like maybe 5 minutes. then the door opened and the doctor seemed rushed as he turned on the light and then turned off the light (as if he forgot what we were doing with me) then grabbed the gloves and sat down, and as soon as the ultrasound wand went in he saw my bladder and said something about how full it was. i apologized, and then nurse laughed.

he counted 6 follicles on my right and 6 or 7 on my left. the largest of both sides being at 11 millimeters. he said i am to change my 2nd ultrasound appointment to sunday instead of monday. that i had to do an ultrasound with another doctor (the one who is there on sundays). he didn't take any pictures for my folder like he did last time. i dont even think the ultrasound machine had an option to print. he rushed out of the room leaving the door open for the nurse to exit, and she told me to meet her outside for scheduling.

i felt a little like i had somehow disappointed them. like my follicles weren't doing what they should have. and i felt a little bummed because now i'd have to borrow a car and drive up to my next appointment, because the train doesn't run any earlier and my appointment time is 8 in the morning. and i hate driving. and also i had asked for monday off work for my 2nd ultrasound and now the date was changed to sunday, and i have to work sunday, so i need to figure that out. and then i'll have a monday off with no reason.

and then its always awkward with a new doctor. i like my current fertility doctor. i trust him and i feel respected and comfortable. now i have to let a stranger look at my eggs? gross. and then i have to get up a couple hours earlier.

and then i realized that i am actually meeting their expectations because i'm developing the follicles faster than anticipated. so i might be ready sooner than the calendar. so i'm doing better than they expected me to. as long as i dont over stimulate, i'll be done with this maybe a day earlier than i thought i would.

just did the shots. menopur in the belly fat. follistim in the upper thigh. lupron in the outer thigh. with the lupron in the insulin syringe i had a little trouble getting the plunger to push down smoothly. it went quickly and jerkily. if that makes sense. so that was uncomfortable. i injected the menopur faster than i usually do. i dont think it matters really how quickly you inject the medication. i allowed the medications to come to room temperature.