Lupron #2

so today has been kinda a weird day.
not sure what parts are side effects and what parts are just situational...

i got to go out to eat at my old favorite restaurant. had my favorite dish on the menu: a monster burrito with ranchero sauce and cole slaw and avocado. it was amazing. i used to go there all the time, but now its only once every few months if that. but it was really tasty and heavy. i couldn't finish it all.

came home. finished the leftovers. about an hour later i felt kinda nauseous and then had a terrible stomach ache that i just wanted to lay in bed until it went away. eventually i fell asleep and when i awoke from my nap the stomach ache was gone. so that sucked.

I was thinking about the Lupron side effects sheet and how it says things like: nausea, stomach cramps, ..., every possible ailment you could have apparently lupron causes it. but who knows why i had a stomach ache. could have been from all the acidity in my belly from the protein-rich lunch.

and then i noticed eczema on one of my fingers. i had eczema once, in 2003, went to the doctor they gave me a cream to keep it from itching. its a dry skin condition that can flare up when the immune system is weak, or when you dont eat enough fruit or when you're stressed out or whatever. It went away after 2003 and i haven't had it since. and this morning it came back.
its no big thing. you wouldn't be able to tell - you can barely see anything. but i know what it looks like and it felt a little itchy so i looked at it. on the lupron side effects sheet dry skin disorders was listed. along with crazy stuff like carcinoma of the skin/ear, and major fetal abnormalities.

then i managed to pick a fight with my husband, and i got emotional. then i thought about the testosterone surge i was expecting, and i wonder if that played a role? i dont think the testosterone surge would have even happened yet...

i'm going to go ahead and blame anything that happens to me for the next 2 weeks on Lupron

i also wonder how much my previous donation will affect any problems and side effects i might have with this donation. am i more likely to have problems? I think so... but i'm trying not to convince myself of that. i am a strong believer in the power of the mind to invent things physically that you expect to happen.

today's lupron shot itself was painless. it itched a little afterwards. i did the shot in my other thigh tonight. i'm going to switch back and forth in some sort of rotation. yesterday's shot location feels fine. took my zovia pill. the whole process of shot-giving and pill-popping took about 1 minute.

i'm keeping the lupron cold when i shoot it. i wonder how much this adds to the itchiness? i'm going to have to look up what i wrote about during last donation's shots (they're on this blog from last year). it has been a while and i haven't really learned from my mistakes.